Tuesday, February 28, 2012

Sunday, February 26, 2012

 Story of my life.... sometimes I think I like it though... Other days not so much. 

Spent the day working on the house. I went out on Friday with Kristina and her Posse' but came home after and fell asleep in my chair after one too many drinks. Oops. It was a pretty tame weekend. I'm trying to be "good" big fail on that one but at least stuff is getting done here.
 I am working on another video.. I will try to have it up before the end of the week. 

Saturday, February 25, 2012

Thursday, February 23, 2012

Wednesday, February 22, 2012

Tuesday, February 21, 2012

Wish life really worked that way....

Monday, February 20, 2012

Something new.

My first attempt at a video.. very poor... lol. I made an intro for it but I don't have any software to link them together... lol. I'll do that another night. This learning thing is not to start this late in the evening. Night all! enjoy!


3 days alone with the cats I'm about ready to ... well lets just say.. BAD KITTY!!! Lol!

So I've come to the conclusion over the weekend that I want to get another convertible. I sold mine years ago and regretted it then but had no choice. Did you know Dodge made a convertible Dakota? lmao! I want one.. too funny. http://www.dakotaconvertible.com/truck.html 
How funky is that?

Anyway, I had better get my buttola moving here and get the rest of the hall painted. I need to go back to home-depot and pick up a few more things as well.
I will try to get a few new bears... well actually 2 dragons, an Ellie and a bunny up on Etsy before the end of the day as well... Better get off the computer! lol. 
Happy Holiday Monday,

Sunday, February 19, 2012

decent into hallway painting madness....

Mom, you okay? Lol.

Reset button

I woke up today feeling more like myself so I've got up.. dyed my hair.. I wanted to get the red out and it won't come out.. Oh well.. deal with that another day..I really just want to put the past behind me and start again. It's really difficult when the past keeps showing it's face everywhere you turn around. I really need a new distraction.

So I woke up with this awesome idea.. but I have too much work to do to start that right now.. I am going to go finish painting the hallway and all the other crap I need to get done today.. then I will start on this new project. I've never done any editing on video and that is what this idea entails so this should be a learning experience 

Saturday, February 18, 2012

My brother texted me this pic the other day and I can't stop looking at it sadly.. lol. Colored soap at the car wash in Stony.

Friday, February 17, 2012

.. not your ghost anymore....

We had the day off work today... I decided I didn't want to get out of bed... finally a friend called after repeated unanswered texts and told me I shouldn't wallow.. So I managed to drag my ass up and get cleaned up. In an effort not to drive myself crazy with my own thoughts I went to the mall to do some much needed retail therapy. It's just been another one of those weeks where I wish I could push the reset button and wake up 7 years ago and start over again. 

I've been doing work on the house and tonight I went and picked out a paint for the hallway. I wanted to finish up with the primer tonight but I am out of energy. I will be going back to the studio soon... I'm just not feeling very creative lately.. more self-deprecating. I'm trying not to do this.. but the more time I spend alone thinking about shit, the worse I get. I know I will find my way again... I just need to get into a new project
and find some more people to hang out with who are not drunks to get me out of this house.  

Happy Long weekend,

Thursday, February 16, 2012

Tuesday, February 14, 2012

Valentines day .. humbug..

“Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.” - Neil Gaimen. 

One of my favorite quotes from the talented Neil Gaimen. I thought it fit the day. Today of course is Valentines day and I'm feeling particularly Emo.. lol. I like to compare Valentines day to Christmas... not my favorite holidays! lol. Actually it was not that bad of a day at all thanks to certain people... Oh!... and look what I found...

 So happy Valentines day... Have a heart... I'd say it was mine to give but I actually cut it out of some poor unsuspecting lad ;) lol. 

Went out for a quick dinner and then bought a copy of Breaking Dawn Part 1 today. I might take the evening off working on the house to go sit on my ass with a mug of Hot Chocolate and actually relax. It's been a few weeks since I've actually sat down to watch a movie. 

.. and if nothing else.. Just remember it's only 260 days till next Halloween.. lol 



Monday, February 13, 2012

Sunday, February 12, 2012

Okay, I think I need to go see this.. Looks pretty cool.

Saturday, February 11, 2012

Friday, February 10, 2012

.. and I just might have an addiction...

Hi my name is Melly and I'm a fabriholic. I don't really want any help for my addiction.. maybe some more fabric? lol! 
So tonight I decided against what I had planned and started working in the studio a bit... I had forgot I had packed up all my fabric... well off to the basement. Inspiration galore! 

So many new ideas seem to come to you after rummaging through all your mohairs! I will be slowly unpacking it all and organizing it so I can actually see it all.... well, hopefully anyway! lol.

Things have been getting better here. I'm settling into my new life... and although I've had some dark days, I'm lucky to have some pretty awesome people around who make my life bright again. 

Tomorrow I want to paint the hallway and do a few other chores.. Getting better everyday in here and it's looking less and less like a disaster zone. Yay! 

I do have a few new critters to put up on Etsy.. I just need to set up an area to do my photo shoots. I hope I can set up a permanent place to do them now and it will make getting new critters up that much easier. I have a cute pink ellie and a dragon ready to go.. among other creations! 
“You don't love someone for their looks, or their clothes, or for their fancy car, but because they sing a song only you can hear.”

Wednesday, February 8, 2012

Tuesday, February 7, 2012

Monday, February 6, 2012

Sunday, February 5, 2012

My new chair and lamp... Looking better everyday in here.

Pinball hall of fame..

Wow. I totally need to make a plan to go here!!! 
I can hear a game I own in the background.. lol.